The way I remember how and when Marijuana came into my life, and believe me when I say,, I can forget things or it may take some minutes or days, until it all comes back to me,, But when it comes to the weed, I have never, not even once, have I forgotten my first encounter and use of our herb, Not once have I forgotten each grow that I have under this belt, there are some of the best times in my life. I will often look back to earlier times spent with Marijuana, I can clearly see that she has always been a huge part of what I am today, Like it was planned way before I introduced to Pot. Without me giving it much thought during all our years together, I still seemed to know that the Pot and I was to have this wonderful journey that would last forever. It would of been nice if back in the day, I had been in tune, much more aware, of the importance our relationship would be, But maybe I wasn't suppose to know or to think so deeply into it all, not until later when the time was right. I guess it is like any other relationship one has, it just takes time developing, whats meant to last, We are forever progressively connecting, and we will continue this, till the day we can no more. I look back and can see, at least for me, Marijuana and I have shared a connection like no other, not before or after that first puff off the joint., All around me it's been the stoners I’d be attracted to, like a biker is attracted to and surrounds themselves to bikers alike. (and when I say stoners, I don't just mean being stoned, it means having a strong connection with the weed, it may be in any way shape or form, Oh it's just a name lol) The weed has her ways to gently bringing herself into our lives, while lovingly develops her growing family, that's her plan I believe. She knows who to pick and who will always be involved. The plant is almost human, that's just how Maryijuana seems to me. I know I might sound a little out there for some, but I know there is the magority who can understand these thoughts inside of me..

There are three types of stoners, there are three ways to get to were we/she may want us to be,

First you inhale, This is when you see which of the young stoners have been chosen and which ones were never going to understand (maybe). Most all, at this time will keep smoking, thats all they will know to do with the Pot, they like the high, they haven't yet processed in their soul what the weed is all about from her buds to her toes..Most will develop this with time, others will stay right were they are, that’s the way it was planed.

Then for the most, it doesn't take too long, to want to grow her and see how she is formed, It's like she has taken them under her wings, teaching the skills that will be much needed when the time is right. But your still young and haven't learned how to see, the importance of what Marijuana can do for more then just the single stoner.. This is the second step that takes them towards the final plan she has waiting, it's true. So now the tokers have this new found way in life, that will always involve growing, Miss Maryjane. The stoner is pleasantly happy, though they still have not a clue, to just how important she is to the world or how much closer together they will continue to be, with the plant we once called, the Weed..

The years pass on by, you've kept your connection, Things were settled just fine, so you thought, until she showed you one more mountain you needed to climb over. If you are one of the fortunate to have come this far, soon so suddenly you will come to find, there is so much more, so very much more, to this plant whom you thought you grew to knew thru and thru. To get to were the stoner is right now, they may had, just off the wall, felt the need go in deeper, into what the Marijuana is really all about, Or maybe the stoner happened to walk through the right doors, like it was meant to be, leading them into more then one would ever of thought there could be, more answers, more stoners, more love and support, communities together all for our Pot, Then there are those who while looking for an answer, to a prayer they might have, With them, guiding them, there is something stronger then anything we know, taking them to were Marijuana and it's family gather with hope, as their spreading their knowledge of her healings and more. It's the chosen many stoners whom have made it this far, It's still over whelming not knowing were this might lead, but still they know now, they and Marijuana was definately meant to be!!

Look how much has happened throughout the years, There was laughter and joy, stoner friends just alike, There were hardships and battles just to be with the our given right, our Maryjane, Thats just the way it had to be, and you know I wouldn‘t of done it any other way. I still even now, after all these years, I still have a battle to fight for the Marijuana, She‘s been by my side and I won‘t leave her now, not even after after come to except her, that's the way it will always be.

I'm thanking whom ever for my life spent with Maryjane, the queen of all herb, the Healer to all...Who would of ever thought she’d want to include me...

So when I look at it all and how I got to this place, I still am and will always be amazed, when seeing how this one single breed of herb, can and does bring us humans together in so many ways, She truly is a Beauty like no other. Her spirit she shares with us all just because she loves us !!!!!!

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I've been offline for awhile and what a great first message to read!

It's a wonderful thing to hear the thoughts of all you underground hemplovers!

We are not alone.

Love you all!

sincerely from
FlowerPuss, BerryBigBudz and MediWana

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I am an herb!!

Nicely said, Deb! Sweet little essay!

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Old King Cole was a merry old soul
And a merry old soul was he!
He called for his pipe and he called for his bowl,
And that's how he stayed so merry!

aaaahh debs..that was beautifully written.......very moving.

Than you Tracey and all,, I just touched her up as I just wasn't happy with it,, I think I am now,,, but it is the way it was for me and I think there is a lot of us who got here that way,,, For what ever way we got here, at least we are here now, What a wonder full time to have come to GP, I feel that we are witnessing and contributing to a very important cause of course but this will be in the history books,, You wait and see

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All of what you wrote rings very true with my life. Mj has been such a big part of my life ever since that first toke all these years ago, I still remember my first time, and it seems as the years go by my connection to this beautiful plant grows deeper.

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No point in mentioning these bats I thought, poor bastard will see them soon enough.

i don't believe i have ever read such a poignant post. well done!

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I don't remember my actual first time, but I do remember the place and the people that I first tried it with.
That was more than 40 years ago.
Still, it never ceases to amaze me... the beauty of this plant. It's just incredibly amazing, on many different levels.

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Old King Cole was a merry old soul
And a merry old soul was he!
He called for his pipe and he called for his bowl,
And that's how he stayed so merry!

I sometimes wonder, though... had it not been illegal, would we be as in love with it?
Obviously, the real, healthy, and wonderful qualities would still be there. But maybe some of us rebelious ones took to it even more, because it was "naughty".
And the culture of people that gathered around it~ did we all feel that much closer, because we were all being "naughty" together?
Of course, we can't go back and change any of those factors; and any other set of factors would've brought different circumstances and feelings.
What we can do is be proud of ourselves for being open enough to see the reality of it and enjoy the plant, and hope that everyone can openly partake of all the many benefits soon, without fear of punishment.

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Old King Cole was a merry old soul
And a merry old soul was he!
He called for his pipe and he called for his bowl,
And that's how he stayed so merry!

Great post deb=)

I will always remember my first dance with MaryJane

Cannabis has always been a part of my life...but I truely didnt connect with her touch until I stopped drinking liquor in my mid 20's.

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"Loyalty to country ALWAYS. Loyalty to government, when it deserves it."
— Mark Twain

"You've gotta be outta your mind not to smoke dope"
-Jack Herer

I do think of the same thing, was it because we rebel, I say maybe when we were young teens, yes maybe then, but as I think back, I can remember my feelings towards this plant, when I was near twenty I didn't think about being illegal and the things I could face if caught growing, I remember just having this attraction to growing the herb. Back then if you had asked me wh,y I probably could'nt of answered anymore then just saying, I was growing to get high, I guess thats what I would come up with because, I had'nt already totally understood how or why this connection existed. But why is it that I loved and felt the strongest urge to grow her. I still am the same way but the need to grow is even stronger, The plant is a good way to creat peace inside of my mind,, Now that I know marijuana is full of miricles, I strongly believe me and you being here at this time in our lives and current history being made, was all meant to be. Some times there is a journey, a prossess that gets us to a certain place, that journey was already planed, some one or something knew we would be needed so that the herb can do what she was made to do....

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Reading this makes me think. I'm a bit new to being a stoner. Should I then follow this nagging urge I have to somehow find a way to grow a plant? I understand what you mean.. I cant get the thought of nurturing the beautiful Tree of Life out of my head! But I am so young, and so unsure of how to start.

You're wise, and you get it. What do you think I should do now?

Go with your gut... Take your time, do the research on the Marijuana and it's history, do research learning what the herb and it's miracles can do for the people and Mother Earth herself... You will know were you belong in this new journey in your life.. I promise.....Just do these four things,,Listen to your Gut, listen to your Heart,, And keep safe about it. Always

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MaryJane and I had a splitting of our ways for many years. Now she has come back in with a passion I have never felt before. I love everything about her. I'm watching her grow with abatted breath.Will she show hairs today?? MMMM the smell makes me warm inside
I hope one day to grow for others

Glad you have a new found love for our herb... She is pretty cool isn't she

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For such a lovely post. You summed it up well. words like that make me feel like less of a ..a..dare I say it..an addict?
See, a few years back Mary Jane left me(or rather,I left her) and I sunk to my very lowest. Hooked on the worst drug on the planet, cocaine, I lost everything. I blew almost a quarter of a million dollars over the course of about ten years.
So, when I am dry like I am now, and so miserable without her, I feel a bit like that old crackhead that I once was.
Until I read something like what you posted, and I realized I am not an addict..I simply love her.
I have trouble even getting out of bed unless I know I have something to smoke with that cup of coffee.
I have a hard time dragging myself to the barn to do chores unless I know i have a good bud to come home to.
I have trouble reading the news, watching TV, reading a book..so on and so on..without her.
My whole life revolves around the plants I have going, and it seems to be even harder knowing they are there, just not ready.
The only thing that keeps me going to bed and getting up each day is knowing I am one day closer to harvest.
Thank you for making me feel better today..(((HUGS)))

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"Her life was okay. Sometimes she wished she were sleeping with the right man instead of with her dog, but she never felt she was sleeping with the wrong dog."

gramma watt, thank you so much for your story, I am so sorry you had to go through all of the cocaine ordeal,, horrible stuff, I am happy you got through it all and have the chance with our herb. Life is all different for you now, and it is ok to have your Mary Jane in it,, believe in that and you won't even think twice about when and how much you need her, she is just a part of your life, and I don't think there is anything wrong with that..

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Thank you Deb..
I would never have felt comfy divulging that info anywhere but here. Not real proud of that time in my life.
But what the heck..I'm here, I'm stronger and a better person because of it.
and I am starting to feel a little bit better about the "wanting the weed issue"
I don't feel addicted, and I know I'm not, because believe me, I would never do some of the things to get weed that I did to get coke. Stopped short of selling my bod, but wrote cold checks, lied, stole..you get the picture...
I just want this crop to be done NOW, lol.

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"Her life was okay. Sometimes she wished she were sleeping with the right man instead of with her dog, but she never felt she was sleeping with the wrong dog."

Amen and hallelujah I'm not the religious type...except when it comes to herb

The fact that cannabis is criminalized and demonized in most society today is a form of control and prejudice. It's a struggle to overcome the stigma of being a 'stoner,' but luckily, I don't follow other people looking for answers or to tell me what is right. Herb has helped me through tough times, and made the good times and good friends even better.

I'm happy to have recently started growing, and arriving here--it's a whole new dimension of experience, and i'm thankful to join with fellow heads in this pursuit. Thanks Deb for your inspirational words!

-Dave

Gramma you are not alone, I would say a lot of us, even me, has gotten into one horrible drug or another at some point in our lives, for me it was drinking and prescription pills. I have to try not to dwell on those days and just live for this day. We are not addicted to weed, We may have stressful times and would really love to have a toke or two and three, but that is medication, it is replacing the horrible drugs that we have always turned to. You and I know what the DTs are, oh I shiver just thinking of it. It is the marijuana that helps the adict to get through those DTS. I only wish the medical system would except it. Your grow will Happen Gramma, just hang in there and enjoy looking at them daily, it is a great thing watching these ladies produce some of the most beautiful flowers/buds on earth...just caring for them is a high for me. I would go outside in the mornings, coffee in hand, magnifying glass in my pocket, and I would go see my plants, talk to them, touch them, and look at the buds through the magnifying glass... The season is done, and I miss them, But the rewards from the special care and the care I give the buds is a great thing too.

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