Basically, my medical need to grow has lessened greatly thanks to surgery, but I'm not sure what to do about the cabinet. Do I keep growing? Or do I really need the risk? I have several reasons on both sides, but basically I feel like I have lost some of my moral grounds for growing when it is so ridiculously illegal here.

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If it makes you nerves growing maybe you shouldnt,but you gotta do whats best for you and yours,!

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Peace,and Best of Luck
Ando

everything i say is half true,and the rest are all Lies!

I have no need to grow but I do have love ones that need it. I also enjoy the relaxation I get from it. Not only that but I am sure their are people where you live that could use the meds. Educate them,help them. Give it to people who need it. You have a skill. Not every one can do what u can do.

But if it wears on you then dont. Do not let it take quality of life from you.

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DISCLAIMER: i do not partake in illegal activities. all posted photos are plagerized, as is text info. i admit it; i pretend to be bad for kicks. hell, i can't even get a chia pet to sprout...

ouch... well im glad things are better, thats for sure. You have been kind to me since i first stepped in this place. And i know your a good person.

I say keep on keepin' on, keep it green, but then again i am a risk taker... =)

whatever you do, just dont stop growing and start buying again. Supporting your lifestyle and supporting illegal cartels and drug sales are in 2 different worlds.

Just move to cali, freedom of choice, thats why i am here. Im origanally from Boston

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Interesting problem to say the least.......I am glad that surgery has helped you. I can understand how you feel living in such a hostile state. It is scary and can ruin your personal life as bad as poor health and pain can if you get caught in some states.

This is one that you have to struggle to the answer on, as it is a personal choice you would be making.

have you thought about moving your activities outside to some covert place that you might feel is safe??

just a thought..........

Well, I guess I should add more details.

A.) I like growing. It's fun and relaxing for me.
B.) The sentence here is 2 years to life.
C.) I'm not selling. It's for personal use only.
D.) Some people close to me that know frown on it a little.
E.) I may still have some medicinal need -- or someone close to me who has cancer may as well.
F.) Moving outdoors isn't really an option. The risk is just too heavy here.
G.) It helps me relax / let things go -- which is good as I still get sick under stress and I stress out easy.

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Hi Smoke,
First, I am very glad you are feeling better after surgery, and second, whatever you decide you have the support of all your firends here at GP, so even if you decide to stop growing, please drop by here from time to time and share with us your knowledge
Peace

growing thing is a very relaxing therapy/hobby.

maybe you could still grow something else? or change to tomatos or veggies outside.. dunno
it seems a big risk if you no longer feel the need. and if someone else ever need it you have the equiptment/set up.. so its easy..

thats just my opinion. where im at the laws are somewhat similar. yesterday night i saw a real life cop program they have here to scare people into submission. and on it some kid went to jail and court for what looked like less than a gram of weed.

if thats not crazy, i dunno what is. so i simple dont grow

To everyone that had something to say here, even those who lost their post, thank you. :D

I'm still not sure what I am going to do. I want to keep growing, but it is a large risk.
I'm also not sure a once a year grow is practical here. (I can't grow outside.) And I want to keep it smallish. Maybe I would feel better if I heightened the security of my grow considerably? (You could figure out it wasn't a dresser if you were in the room... :( )

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My first grow! Check it out! (Perpetual Round Two! Starting at post #61)

Cannabis is a transformation, f(x), such that -> and -> . Do the math and smoke!

I am happy, my post is there! LOL
It was bad that this has happened because this thread was becoming a good one
Peace

What would a once a year indoor grow look like?

Weekly Need: 1 - 2oz
Yearly Need: 52 - 104oz / ~1423 - ~2846grams
That means at least 1000watt of lighting for a DrBud style SOG. (And a LOT of plants.)
Or some form of ScrOG.

If I wanted to make sure I hit somewhere in the middle, I would have to go for at least 2000watt of lighting. That is a lot of space I don't have. :(

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My first grow! Check it out! (Perpetual Round Two! Starting at post #61)

Cannabis is a transformation, f(x), such that -> and -> . Do the math and smoke!

I know the feeling believe me. You want ridiculous ? I got it all day long and I mean in a very bad way. This state sux the big one as well my friend. When 1 single plant can ruin you and I mean RUIN you! It is bad my friend so take all of this into consideration. If you have lost your "moral" reasoning to grow than my reccomendation is to hang it up. See, so many idiots out there think we have no morals and that is a gross misinterpretation altogether.
JMHO!
Peace Out,
Med

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I have a funny system of morals. It doesn't let me kill people, but it makes me feel guilty for growing a plant. Odd, eh?

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My first grow! Check it out! (Perpetual Round Two! Starting at post #61)

Cannabis is a transformation, f(x), such that -> and -> . Do the math and smoke!

"Guilt"?? How could you ever associate Guilt with this beautiful Plant? LOL Maybe yer right in the decision of halting for the time being. Hey a big part of your problem has already been answered with you having recognized these feelings. JMHO but that sure sounds like a sound intelligence to me. It'll come man just wait for it. Patience is definately a necessity in this little game my friend.
Peace Always,
Med

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its a guilt thats imposed on us. i understand it. i sometimes feel guilty for smoking here, its not me thats doing it.. its external

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this would be a highly personal choice and one I struggled with for yrs on end.
I grew up with my pop's growing commercial and medical... before it was even possible to have medical defense. I watched him get busted repeatedly because of friends or even family that would nark for one reason or another. Dad never quit because he believed that the law was wrong and felt it was his duty to continue regardless of the personal price.

Now... haveing been his son and supportive of his moral decision but also being the child to go through many busts and many moves and eventually even loosing him for 5 yrs. to the feds, I felt the pain... not even his, but my own at having lost my father from my life for those long yrs. He missed his only grandsons birth and first few yrs.
It was a profoundly personal loss to me and one I'd never even discuss with him for fear of giving him guilt, when he already has more than enough to bare.

all that being said... I support those who would break the prohibition law for the point over the profit and proudly proclaim my fathers suffering and cause regularly. However, I never grew and never would have, until I got the legal option in my state. It even took me yrs beyond that to go ahead with it, even though I knew I over-qualified. Something about going through a DEA raid at 12 and being on the news that just doesn't go away.

If you have no others in your life to be hurt by loosing you to the man... I'd say "go for it" becouse it seems obvious to me that is what you want, but if you face putting others through pain... then consider your choices very carefully and the ramifications of the worst case scenario.

Good luck however you decide to go or grow!

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