Day 6 on no Methadone feelin good a little jittery. Go to the hospital for a Gastroscopy. My Dr knows I just got off methadone, the nurse asks me where to put the IV, umm, well I've always had good luck on my left arm, I'm right handed you know, she laughs, (she also knew about my previous IV drug use) Yeah RUN from it!!! Anyway my doc shows up and very secretly inserts a needle in the IV and pushes the plunger, liquid valium or something like that and my stomach relaxes, nice... then comes the next syringe Fentanyl, I'm watching out of the corner of my eye, down goes the plunger and peace comes to my soul (or so you think that's the addiction). (Google Opium Dreams) I felt that old, soft, contented feeling again, like my old friend, the soft white rabbit was there, and he was. HOWEVER, so are the withdrawals like an old friend/enemy. Today my opiate cravings are up a bit. Nothing I can't control, must keep busy....where's the bowl? Yeah, now this is right, marijuana is extremely effective in controlling my nausea and vomiting PLUS it helps with the mild opiate withdrawals. But nothing helps with cold turkey full fledge opiate withdrawals. I detoxed, cold turkey, from heroin 2 times. Heroin, which comes from the Greek word for Heroic, pretty wierd, huh and people say there are no spiritual forces around, I don't buy it. Anyway just thought I'd say . Been 2 big busts in town netting over 8,000 Lbs of weed. Bummer, that drives the price up and the quality down, hang on I need a hit... anyway thanks for this site for self expression. Peace and joy to all......Later....

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Addiction is a BITCH!!!!!! Been there done that! Went cold turkey on my own I had the worst 2 weeks of my life!!!!!! Stay clean its way easier! I am tellin you ... the thoughts I had during the first week!!!! WOW! It was rough! I didnt know that goin cold turkey could kill you! My wife got me through it, Im telling you it was UN FOOKIN believable! That memory has cured me, I still get the craving 10 years later but then I think of those weeks of pure hell and I can say NO to drugs!

Now if I could quit the weed and booze! well I guess the saga continues! I have an addictive personality!

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My Dr in NYC told me that heroin withdrawals are not fatal, you just feel like you wish you were dead. Whereas alcohol addiction withdrawals are fatal if not hospitalized. No offense intended, because of my gastroparesis I don't/can't drink. It will just make me sick. But marijuana is extremely theraputic and non addictive and that is what I want to say Power to the Cannabis Plant . Yeah as they say in treatment you have to play the tape all the way through, that enabled me to kill that monkey :Dick:. Peace...

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Be very,very careful in this next stage of life.It is so easy to get hooked again(you never really get over it,you have to control it;not let it control you.) A smell or sound can set you off,get your viens itching again.I spent 2 1/2yrs beating the cocain/crack monkey.I've tried it since and I guess it was beat, or god said enough and wouldn't let me get high from it.That was my wake up call!!!
If you find yourself contemplating using again, just look back a remember how hard it was to kick the first time.And if you just can't fight it any longer try WHIPPETTS.
NITRIOUS OXICIDE GAS(It will give you the rush of the push,without the withdrawals)

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WAS MOSE'S REALLY SPEAKING TO A BURNING BUSH???
OR WAS IT ONLY SMOKING???

Good on all of you Brothers... It can be done, but it is not easy, booze is my addiction, have been to AA many times, but no luck.. Last stint I went 1.5 years w/o a drop of booze, but guess what.... I was addicted to steriods.. I blew up from 145lbs to over 200 of pure muscle, sticking myself with a needle aver 3rd day, hitting the gym every friggen day, eating like there is no tomorrow every 3 hrs., sex drive out of this world, happy as I have ever been in my life, but the wrong comment from someone would set me off and I would not back down, people were afraid of me.. I miss it, but have shrunk back down to 160, puny little 35 YO.. and drinking like there is no tomorrow..

Unfortunately, as of right now I live by a saying.. "I'm not here for a long time just here for a good time"...:( Sad

Peace,

Sock

I agree with what Jonny said. You will never loose the craving, its been 15 years since I did coke, Yet the very thought of it makes me crave it! Just reading this thread makes me want it! And to be honest I lied about 15 yrs! I caved like 3 yrs ago, I did a few lines, I felt so bad for caving! I have been clean for some time now but, the craving never goes away! Just today someone offered me coke for 70 bucks a gram! Christ! I used to pay 250 for an ounce!!!!! Shit dude I jest gave away my age!!!!!


Get off the shit! And fight every day to stay OFF the shit!

Find something else to fill the NEED. You know what I mean? I know you understand NEED!

YOU DONT NEED IT! You will survive!

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Hey Sock did you use to post at massmonsterz? Blackdreams bodybuilding fitness forum?

That's why I was on Methadone Maintnance for ten years. To try to get the urge to go away. Methadone, even though it is a highly addictive opiate, lets your body adjust to it and you don't feel high yet, you are, thus the cravings, for opiates, are gone (only because they are controlled.) After years of living like this one becomes more stable (hopefully.) I have already done methadone and one 8 mg dilaudid since my last legal dose of methadone on June 2, 2008. It's like the Byrd says (Charlie Parker), "They can get it out of your blood, but they can't get it out of your mind." But I have never had an addictive relationship with marijuana. After smoking for over 20 years I quit cold turkey due to boredom. I started using Cannabis again for there is no safe drug that controls the chronic nausea and vomiting from my Diabetic Neuropathic Gastroparesis .

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Damn sock.. You gotta turn that shit around! I know life can get pretty shitty, but you got to look at it for the long term. Everyone goes through their own rough patch in life. I went through one a few years back and now I am on the other side of it. Mine wasn't substance related, but I was still at the lowest point I have ever been in life. I lost a lot of things that meant a lot to me. All I can do is take it as a life experience.

Your head really starts to f*ck with you sometimes, and you have to start to think about the positives. I know I thought about some CRAZY stuff, that looking back is really disappointing.

There is so much more to life than what is staring you in the face.

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Not those sites but at a few others, the main site I was a member of went private over a year ago, had to be a known as a good honest person to get in. Best underground gear on the market.. But those days are over, still have me a stash though...

Peace,

Sock

Yes GG you are right.. I say that I am an alcoholic, but I think by saying that it gives me the excuse to drink. Cost me my first marriage. But now I only drink on my days off, not a drop during the week... I know what I have to do to make things right for my family so I take charge and do it..

Have done my fare share of other drugs, but never addicted, like I am w/ the booze. Coke is great, but never addicted, 1 or 2 every few years, but that is it..

But I do know where my priorities lye...

Peace,

Sock

I've watched this thread from afar, for a few days and actually thought about not posting in it, as it is off topic, but after thinking about it, it is relevant.

I've had my fair share of turmoil dealing with addictions too, I was into coke before they had the crack they have today. Well we had it, but it was way different.
I was never much of a smoker anyway, having a true addictive personality, smoking, wasn't quick enough for me. I needed that immediate relief.

Than as the years rolled by, I fell into a nasty fentanyl addiction too. Them damn lollipops will get ya every time.

As was previously said, the drug will always call to you, even years after you quit.
But all it takes is once, and your in, head over heals again.

Anything is better than going down that road again. You all need to be careful.
Peace

I think a lot of us have histories with addiction, even if a doctor is the one who got you there, it doesn't make the withdrawl any better.

I know all too well nights spent peering out the window every 5 minutes on coke. That is some horrible stuff, and nowadays it can be laced with even more addicting substances. All of the street drugs are becoming increasingly impure and dangerous. Most man-made drugs are dangerous and have an addictive potential. I'm glad I've never done heroin or meth, since I do have an addictive personality, I'd be hooked almost immediately. I was given methadone in the hospital after I had to have a piece of metal removed from my kneecap. Afterwards I was given 4 days of morphine time release tablets, and after that a week of vicoden pills when I left the hospital. after the methadone. all of the other opiates had almost no effect on pain. morphine felt like asprin. I was on it for 2 days, I can't imagine what it would be like for someone who is addicted to it. I still think about how it felt 3 years later. Like vid said, it only takes once and you're back into the horrible cycle of addiction.

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