Hello again my friends. I am so sorry I dissapeared without any explanation but at the moment i'm afraid that my personal life has fallen apart. For the last 4 days I have tried to find out WHY? To no avail and I am so beyond exhausted both emotionaly and physicaly. I will be back with you later today. I cant thank you all enough for thinking of me during this absolutely horrible time in my life.
Love and Hugs To You All,
Med

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dude, whatever it is take it easy mate.
of course we think of ya!

I will have to find a way to bounce back. Just goes to show when ya think you really know someone for nearly 25 years. What ever I did wrong (or her Sister makes her think I did ) is beyond me. She claims that it is over my refusal to continue my BS prescription Cancer meds but I know there is an underlying reason in there somewhere. I just wish she would talk to me but I have to continue with my life no matter what.
This site is my power and my love. I do not bow down when I am doing something that I know in my heart and mind is truly right.
I love you all and thank you for your thoughts. You are my Friends!
Medicinecloset

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Thank you ileso my friend. All will truly be well ONE WAY OR THE OTHER.
Med

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Gosh, sorry to hear that Med. I was hoping you were cranking up the Camaro. I'm betting she's worried about you.
Hope things work out,

Tex

"Fear is a very strong emotion,strong enough to over power a true love.
Reassurance of this love can over power the fear..."
Slinging mud back and forth will only create an adobe wall between you...
You two have been through too much to give up on each other now...
Maybe a little vacation together would help get your minds off the subject and allow you to concentrate on your relationship some.
Gods Speed my friend.
Peace

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Aging is GODs way of telling us there's no time to waste...

WAS MOSE'S REALLY SPEAKING TO A BURNING BUSH???
OR WAS IT ONLY SMOKING???

hey med, did it occur to you that she loves you and you're refusal to take your
cancer meds scares the crap out of her?

life is hard man, and love is even harder! ...try to understand her fear of losing
you after all these years and maybe, when she is upset, you'll understand she
isn't angry, she's afraid!

and try to remember not to sweat the small sh1t, some things are beyond our
control so not worth feeling bad about.

and maybe, just to make her happy, you could take your cancer meds, who
knows, maybe hedging your bets will keep you alive brother!

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peace, bozo

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We love ya M, you know that.

Whatever your choices, we will stand with you.

Peace

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Life,
j-angel

aka GP purrie kittie attack cat!


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Great words of wisdom indeed

YES I totally agree.
This is written so boldly and truthfully.
Fear is cripplingpepsweetie.gif
Let go of the fear and talk truthfully
Sometimes it takes a bit of mud slinging especially if there have been underlying issues for a while that have not been addressed or acknowledged until now.
I know being a woman one of the MAIN things we want is to be heard but I also know that can be a lot to ask of you men as we can RAMBLE on forever it seems.

If you love someone greatly you listen to them with concern and understanding and help them be the best person they can be ; even if it is something that may be hurtful at the time.
Friends speak the truth no mater what.
Be true to yourself ,
Be receptive and open(listen with an open mind as well as open heart)
and all should be well

It might be a bit turbulant at first......
but good

I wish you the best in your times of trouble and yes we ARE all connected at an unconscious level

Awwwww...sorry for the jack
BUT


That was like totally sw-e-e-e-t

Yep I am a puddle of tears now thanks

Its ALL GOOD

Jonny,
Thank you very much for the support and kind comments. I have no idea at this time what is even going on other than I guess I really never knew her true feelings. I'm not the only one with serious problems. My problems affect her in many ways even worse than mine. Pain has many faces. Together this too shall pass one way or the other. I will get her back!
Love and Peace My Friend,
Med

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Just so you all know I have resumed my Rituxim and regimen meds again. This is for my benefit as much as my Wifes. Now I have to show her that somehow. Do I agree with the Meds? Absolutely not but I have to find a reasonable "happy medium" that we can agree on. She already knows that I wont stop doing something that I know is right though but I am sure there is a reasonable agreement we can reach.
I will try to keep you guy's up to tabs on it as I find out. IF I ever do. Kinda depends on how deeply her Sister digs her ravenous heels into her. Why she is being like this I have no clue. Me and her Sister have ALWAYS gotten along very well. Oh well enough of my drama as youve all no doubt heard it before.
Peace Always And Blessings,
Med

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I am glad you are working it out, M. You know you are constantly in my thoughts. I wish you both only happiness and I also know with this awful illness, it is impossible, but I do wish that for you.

I love you sweetie.

Peace

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Life,
j-angel

aka GP purrie kittie attack cat!


My Little Grow LST'ing w/Hardware

My Outdoor Odyssey 2008 BONSAI MUMS

My Little Grow Indoor To Outdoor 2009

good luck med.peace and love my frend we are with you