its about 55 here i got them on a black mat so its around 65 around them

I am certain your efforts will be blessed and you will find that you have a hidden talent while you pursue this. Just start out researching book/library/online whatever and get a couple of seed...

My favorite book on the subject is "Home Herbal" by Penelope Ody. It is out of print but you can still find it. used at Amazon or whatever..

Once you have a dream you have the potential to fulfill it!

Many Blessing!

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thank you very much dez2

Hi all Gemini guy here....

7 years ago I was sitting at our kitchen table when I started getting very bad lower back pain. I was 38 then and in very good shape. The wife and I would go to the gym 4-5 days a week. Always ate fresh food and I cook everything from scratch. (why the wife fell in love with me the cookin)

Go to emerg and the doc says I have alot of blood in my urine. They give me a shot of Demerol and a strainer to pee in thinking it was kidney stones. Many tests later they have no answers for the "pink pee" send me home with pain killers.

Pain gets worse over next few years and increase on percocets and oxycontin with many tests to find zip. Then they test me for diabetes and sure enough I then have type 2. Not more then 8% body fat, eats no sugar I get diabetes?

A couple more years go buy and another test confirms severe/chronic RA which explained the pain in joints and swelling.

Last year another few tests and presto Pheochromocytoma is confirmed. At this point I'm thinking I must get a cool prize for all this shit right?

I have always turned to "modern medicine" in a 7 yr search to get well. I took pills on time. I ate right. All these things to get better. It's funny you see the ads on TV for every ailment out there and there is a magic pill or something to get us better. But, for me I only ever got another disease and felt worse.

If not for my wife's company drug plan how could anyone afford over $2000+/month on my drug costs? I was on drugs like Enbrel, Oxycontin. Percocet, High Blood Pressure pills 1200 mg/day diabetes drugs etc?

In November 08 we celebrated our 20th anniversary. My wife is truly an angel. Some would've walked away she shouda RAN AWAY. With long term usage of Oxycontin and Percocet my mood swings were unreal. All I wanted was to die and I had more then enough "bullets" in the pill bottle to do it. When you start hiding pain pills from yourself there is a sign. I just didn't want to feel like this anymore. Our lives have been devistated by this.

Anyway, all choked up by this.

Went in to my doctor and said. You have tried to help me and so many specialists too. But, I am taking too many drugs for too many things. I have to try something different. I need to get help. ENOUGH!!!

I asked him to sign me up for MMJ and he agreed. Dec 4 08 I went to my compassion centre for the first time. They are very helpful.

I stopped taking Enbel $1600 month ENOUGH!
I stopped taking 50% of my pain meds. More to stop but this one takes time.
I have cut down all my "phama meds" and will continue to cut them down.

The sad part is the cost. Now on perm disability MMJ is very expensive. I can get 5k month from the wifes drug plan for "pharamcuticals" but not a dollar for MMJ. NOT A DOLLAR! I am already saving them at least $1700/month but no way they would pay for an ounce of MMJ for a month to help me out.

I am feeling better and I am trying to help myself. I will get back on my feet. I will continue MMJ and I will start a grow this spring. I must grow it cause I can't afford to buy it even though I am allowed now. What friggin irony is that?

Thanks to you all for listening and always the warm support, you give so much. hope this helps somebody else going through what I have. We are all alike. Try to be strong. I really needed to say all this.

I vape it, cook with it, and like I have heard others say I will rub it all over my body if it helps.

Lucky

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wow i feel for you man, i wish you all the best of luck and i offer you as much help as i possibly can

Again and again I here this type of story. You have made me so proud to know you and I too, am choked up. How brave you are for getting yourself off all that poison.

You know we will do whatever we can to help you. I feel your pain, my dear freind. At least we can laugh with you and share with you. And you know what support we will give you in your growing. What ever we can do, consider it done.

You are why I do this.


Peace

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I use it thanks to Crohn's disease. Without it I have no appetite and am often enduring nausea, pain and diarrhea (and sometimes even vomiting) periodically throughout the day. It's ... not good. With marijuana I can get through the daily problems and actually get some work done, but the stress from it being illegal and the associated difficulty in finding it (especially medical grade) can be problematic too. (Hopefully growing it myself will reduce that stress significantly!)

When I was first diagnosed, the doctors couldn't give me anything that would stop the pain/nausea except opiates, and that isn't exactly a long term solution. Everytime I would ask I kept getting new medications thrown at me. Some of them actually made me worse!

And as I kept looking I found out that there really just wasn't a whole lot out there to help people with Crohn's on a day to day basis. Yeah, they can reduce the inflammation or stop the advance of a flare up, but as my doctor said "Well, there will always be some baseline discomfort." ... Which apparently means daily nausea, pain, no appetite, etc.

And yeah I could go back to the doctor to ask for more help, but then I am once again either a guinea pig or he wants to start cutting out parts of my bowels. (And for Crohn's, that isn't a good long term solution either. It comes back!)

---- I wish I were in an mmj state.. :/

Ah sweety....I hear ya. Yes, you will be fine growing your own.

You are in the best place and I look foreward to seeing you succeed.

Again and again and again.

And you know you have all the help you will need, however we can.

I am so glad you found us, sweetie.

Peace

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man thats hard to fallow wish you all the best and welcome to the world of growing i myself have nowhere near as good of a reason to smoke or eat as you do i just use it for a couple differant reasons #1 stress which for me is the major reason which comes from all around me i'm one of those people that can't quit thinking about the what if this or that happened instead of how it actualy happened and by that i mean for weeks if not months after stuff happens as long as i smoke every couple hours my mind stay somewhat blank from these thoughts but if i go with out for a couple days watch-out and the longer i go with-out the worse it gets luckily i aint had to go with-out for the last 8or9 years there's been times in my line of work where i refused to work on the job site we were on at the time becuase of it. like i rember 1 time in great detail we go to this guys house to tear it off and give him a new roof and we walk from the back where we parked to the front and i about feel to the ground cuase just the night before i dreamed i fell of the guys house and landed in his concrete driveway on my head i actualy quit roofing for a few years after that one happened never seen the house before in my life till i dreamed about it then we go and start working on that house the next day was just a lil to much for me luckily my buddy was a forman at a factory i literly had the job before i got to the plant to fill out the app they had me start second shift got paid to fill the app out on break enough rammbling on

Ice, I understand what you go through, my partner is like that. He deals with it every day and I know it can be crippling. He just can't get "unstuck" sometimes, with the way things go around and around in his mind.

I am glad you have a help with MJ.

Peace

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tell him mixing the strains works pretty good for me might not taste the best but it sure hits the spots i aint had anything that bad but the one time but once is all it takes but the strains you guys got more then likely aint the same i got

im the same way man thats part of my borderline ocd thing. i find that special muffins help that. where as brownies for some reason make it worse. odd. . .

He says edibles don't affect him the same way. I get an affect from them but not him. Ice, what strains help you the most? Or moonbiscuit. It is not easy figureing this out. I know he has that feeling, "one bowl makes me feel normal" and now he feels like he does not get high anymore. But does feel better, more normal, more balanced, when he smokes.

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my favorite strain is quite simply Origonal Blueberry. which ive only been able to get around here for a month two years back, i live in a town devoid of anything really but bag weed, granted i have tried a fair amount but not enough to verify any medicinal use. blue berry i just remember the entire time i could get it gave me the feeling of calm nonchalance.

I have some I will be growing. I know I like Kish (shiskaberry) which is in the genetics for blueberry. And that is what we have now. It is all good.

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yeah im just tired of not being able to get any of the high grade strains and having to make due with shirt dirt

All in time, sweetie. You are in the right place and you know we will do whatever we can to help you with what you need. patiants, my friend. I know that does not help you at all, but we are here. Just know that.

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yeah im trying the whole patience thing but i quit smoking for a month because i was tired of paying arm and leg for stuff that aint worth it, but now im back and with a new connection so hopefully. lol.

right now my personal fav is serious's bubblegum the phenom i got smells like the old bazooka joe gum it's the only strain i've got high on in quit some time it's to the point you get a headrush about halfway through the hit others i like are sensi's skunk#1 northern lights and hashplant then my all time fav for flavor is strawberry cough unless i find something in this next order that blows her taste away but she is also my second choice for smokeing if i aint got no bubblegum any pure indica should work for him pretty good and a sativa might evan make his problem worse if it has an up heady high like most sativa's do or if you got a mix i'd just go with the strains that have more of the indica traits for the highs

Its an honor to know you. You must clearly be worth the effort for her somehow, you can believe that.

Bless you my friend

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